Kinda Vent?? (Tw: Pronoun questioning, Light swearing and SH)

So like I've made a couple threads abt my Pronoun questions sh1t but like I haven't got to hear them out loud only a couple people know abt my "new" pronouns (Xe/Xem/Xers/Xes/Xeirs) so like I had a SH relapse bc I thought nobody cared and was just not gonna use them last night :( I'm really upset with myself bc I've been clean since like December or January. I'm sorry :/ I really wish that people would use them or like try to incorporate them to make me feel better bc when I told ppl that I went by a different name they were always like "hi REN how are you today :3" when they used to just say "hi hru". I'm gonna ask my boyfriend to use them A LOT at lunch today so I can see how I like them. idk why I even made this post sorry