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i’m genuinely such a pain all i do is complain but i can’t talk to anybody irl so im sorry i don’t deserve friends or sympathy, i can’t be bothered to be anybody’s friend any longer, my friend asked me to do a simple task for her today and i said can you ask somebody else? i’m such a horrible friend like it’s basic human decency to do small favours for your friends but im just so self absorbed that i can’t even be bothered to help out a friend absolutely nobody deserves that i would apologise but some part of me doesn’t want to, which sickens me to think how awful i am im tired of being a good friend, my friends don’t deserve somebody who sees loyalty and compassion as a chore they’re the only things keeping me from shutting down completely and never talking again and i can’t just drop them because that’s awful and they have never done anything wrong to me but i just feel so drained and exhausted and i just need a few weeks to shut up i also just never shut up like genuinely i just drone on and on and on and on and im so annoying and horrible and always am mean to my friends and i just wanna run off and live in a car for a week but i don’t have that option and my friends will hate me if i ask to be left alone for a while but if i did do that i’d get really lonely and would want to go back because this feeling comes and goes but now it’s really strong and i just don’t know anymore
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