can u guys give me signs that I have a toxic friend who is choosing(?) not to hang out with me :[

my friends run away from me and sometimes it makes me a lil bit sad but they apologize later and my friend we'll call her Rae for rn she lets my other friends who have been her friends for only a little bit she trusts them more than me and it makes me feel like I did something wrong and Rae hates me and she doensnt wanna be my friend anymore and also she let's my friend A read her and her ex boyfriends texts messages and whenever I wanna look at it she hides her phone from me she used to be really nice to me but she is kinda more mean to me tho and her mom hates me for no fucking reason so I asked her why and she said I don't know and her mom knows I have a girlfriend (but rae's mom has a wive so yea I dunno wut the fuck Is going on) and also I used to have this friend Anna (yes I'm using her name cuz she hurt my fucking BFF) we met in summer camp and she was my best friend until RAE showed up she and Rae hung out every single day and it made me left out so when I tried to hang out with all of them they just ran away :[ (I was little btw) one day me and Anna were the only ones left at the camp bc everyone went home so when Anna got called to go home I tried give her a hug good bye but she pushed me down to the floor and said "let me go freak" so I started crying and then the next day I tried being friends with Rae but Anna must've told Rae to stay away from me bc Rae shuffled away from me every time I tried talking to her. but next year at summer camp Anna moved and Rae didn't so we became friends YAYYYY :D BUTT in 6th grade we became distent bc Rae started calling me big and chubby and fat so I snapped and said "Stop fucking calling me that" which I personally think I had every right to say so