I freaking love my dad (not sarcastic, but it is a vent)

(TW, This post gets vent-ish.) I came back from my shower and found a sheet of paper on my bed. Upon reading it, he wanted to have a daddy-daughter date and write down ideas with check boxes. (Said I had to check three) Apparently I get to use 40 bucks on any place listed X3 He's kinda been, nicer recently. Not that he wasn't before but I dunno, it just feels weird. It's like he's trying to get closer to me?? And I love him for it, considering some people just get ignored. But that's just the problem. I feel unworthy of his treatment. He's a super conservative, transphobic, racist, homophobe. And I'm like, the exact opposite. He openly says violent things about trans people, and my best friend is trans. It almost feels dangerous being around him now. It's so hard loving him when he hates me, or moreso the me I don't show him. He's so nice, but every morning I gt up and hear his rants about hating stuff. This "stuff" he hates is close to me. I used to be able to yap about whatever to him, now I'm terrified I'll say the wrong thing. He's gotten pissed because I knew the correct terminology for flurries suiting in public, public suiting, and because of stuff like that I'm terrified to speak. I know this daddy-daughter thing is important to him. But I'm dreading the awkward silences, and the burnout I'll feel when it's over. Sometimes after speaking to him for so long I'll head in my room and feel relieved it's over. But that isn't healthy. And it's not that I hate him. I know I don't. I just hate that I'm questioning my relationship with him. He'll scream absolutely racist stuff, accidentally ending a friendship of mine, and upon mentioning it to him he felt no remorse. And then he'll be sad I won't play pinball with him. It's stressful. And he keeps falling back on old things, due to me not being able to talk about the stuff I like (it being too "queer", and I hate confrontation), he keeps referring to the old me. I'm tired. I don't want to act anymore but I can't just stop or I'll be the very thing he hates.