a paragraph i wrote for nikki, i love her so much, i will never let her go

i loev her so much SHE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME!! Nikki is such an amazing soul that wasted her love on me my beautiful, beautiful darling I love her and I always will. I don't deserve a partner as sweet and caring as her. The way she sounds, looks, acts, everything she does, I admire. Gorgeous in every aspect, she is truly are the most precious person I've met. How could I ever deserve her? The love I feel is something unique, something that I’ve never felt within me. I’ll treat her better than I’ve ever treated anyone. To cherish her, be beside her, and in her arms for every moment and all eternity is all I ask for. She made me realize something about myself that I didn't know I had. That I could love without being selfish. I'd choose to give up everything for this. I love her so much that even in my darkest times, when I feel that everyone has turned their backs on me, when I isolate myself, when all the people I love start to feel like a bother, she was there. Thank you for always checking on me, even when you aren't okay yourself. I'm ashamed of myself, for ever thinking less of you. I love you. I want us to last forever, for you to always be by my side. Even if we need space from each other, I don't ever want to feel like a burden to you. I’ll be there waiting for you if you ever feel as if you have no one. You've never let me down, I can't thank you enough for all you've done. Thank you for being a friend of mine, and an even better partner. I believe you're one of the best people I'll ever meet. You're such a blessing in my life, and you always will be. You're my favorite person ever, and you always will be. I can't express it enough of how much I love you. I want to be with you for the rest of my days. I'd give anything not to lose you, and I hope you never go back on your promise. Please never leave me, you're one of the biggest priorities in my life, even as of now. I love you so much. You are the person I treasure the most, love the most, want to be with the most. You're the truly stunning, inside and out. You're all I could've ever wished for, and I love you so dearly. I could never leave you, I wish to be by you forever. I want to embrace you in my arms and love you as much as I can. I want to stay by your side and be there for you. I'm genuinely grateful that you even considered to give me a chance, and I will stay with you. I promise to never think wrong of you, ignore you, leave you, I will always be there for you. I can't even format or explain how much you mean to me. You're my treasure, my everything, nikki. I pray we're inseparable forever, staying with each other until we pass. I adore you. I adore how simple you are to communicate with and how your personality is everything I would've dreamt for as a partner. I'm terrible at putting my love into words, but please understand that I'd do anything, everything for you. I could never comprehend how I'm able to be with you, and I'll be forever thankful that you chose me. The true love of my life. The only person that I feel completely safe around. The person I love with all my soul. I always will and never stop loving you, no matter the circumstances. The reason I find good in myself. My heart, Nikki. Thank you so much for being with me, I pray for us to last forever. A partner like you was the last thing 1 deserved. For us to talk for the last time, for you to abandon me, is my biggest fear. I don't care how distant I may be at times, don't ever take it as if I'm getting tired of you. I don't ever want to lose you. The perfection incarnate that has always been there. Who's stayed with me for this past year. I promise l'Il stay with you through it all. When you can't even figure yourself out. Even if I can't help you, i'll be there for you, no matter what comes between us. The one lovely person I can freely show my affection to, the one who will never push me away. I adore you with my whole heart and being. The sole thought of leaving you makes me sick to my stomach. I'd break down in tears if you left me. I'd do anything for you. Flawlessly beautiful, stunning, you're the epitome of gorgeous. And I don't think I'll ever find someone that could even come close to you. You're amazing in every way imaginable. I can't even believe that I know you. I love you so much, Nikki. And your the person that's carried so many of my burdens with me, For almost everytime we spoke you've been by my side. You've known me during so many phases, I don't think there's anyone I'm closer to. Even while you're at your lowest, or if you push me away, I'm always here if you need me. You've shaped my personality so much so that I wouldn't even have the same friends without knowing you. I aspire to be as much of a wonderful and unique person as you are. I've looked up to you for months. You'll always be my number one. I can only wish for us to know each other like we do now for years to come. I'm sorry if I can't put my feelings into words well, but you've truly been there for me no matter what. I don't care how mentally unwell either of us may get, I'll be with you through it all. I cherish you in a way I do no one else. You're so stunning, it's insane. Everything I do, I want to be as good as you. I hate the mere thought of you ever turning away from me. You continue to be beside me, even when we disagree, even when we start gravitating away from one another. Thank you for all the things you've done for me, and for being my best partner in the entireeeee world, i hope we are together forever, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. lets go to cali and get shot