rant abt someone im inlove w

so im kinda liking THREE girls rn..yes ik thats kinda crazy but hey ykw they say wait actually no i dont..anyways im not gonna namedrop so lets call my first crush Z..well Z and i were best friends and we had sleepovers a lot and she was the one who improved me on finding out i was bi but that same sleepover where i told her i liked a girl she..kissed me the next day FAHH we were watching a show in her bed and she kept staring at me like weirdly and i kept saying what playfully so i hid under the blanket and then she did aswel so i went out again and then she kissed me a few times i was surprised so i did nothing but accept it...I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO KISS SO I JS LAYED STILL AND OUR LIPS JS KEPT TOUCHING EVERY TIME SHE KISSED MEEEE AHHHH WHYY..ahem but we kinda stopped hanging out after that and then i came out to my brother..SHOULDNT HAVE DONE THAT. he told my mom and my mom went bazookers and yea..I MISS HER AND I WANNA START HANGING OUT AGAIN BUT I FEEL LIKE HER FAMILY HATES MEEEEE. anyways next crush will be M. so M and i were friends not very close but we hung out a bit since she was in my street SO WAS Z BTW!! anyways she had told me she had a girlfriend but i remember her having a bf one time too so ig she was bi i think? i started to get rlly busy and she stopped coming over bc i always said i couldnt hang out..sobbbb...last crush is A..sadly she has a gf already and me and her are very good friends and shes rlly cool she likes sally face and everything...AHHHH I WANT HER!!!11 anyways byebye