shellshocked (warning for implied panic attacks/anxiety)

i wrote a double drabble mwahaha 👅 "The grass beneath my feet and the sky full of stars blend together messily and I can’t see the moon without focusing my eyes until I cannot breathe. Shellshocked would be the word to describe it, I guess. It feels like my puny shell of a body is massively shocked, struck with the collateral damage of a war in someone’s head. I feel dirty, however, like sheets after a rough night or the alcohol on the floor after a teenager’s party. Or do I feel nothing at all? My vision blurs even more, and I stumble. Everything’s unreal even myself. “Bot?” … “I think you’re just glitching out, Botterfly.” Test Tube clearly states, touching my shoulder with her hand. “You’ll be fine.” Yet everything feels like something so unrelated, like something so quick happened, like a burst of light shining in the eye. Or maybe like a strike of lightning. The rod of light appearing and vanishing in mere seconds. “Oh– okay,” I smile, yet both of us know I don’t mean it. Neither of us has meant a smile since the storm. “Mom? I don’t think it’s just the wires.” I begin. “I think there’s something wrong with me.” "