*sigh* /NAV

so yk how I was talking Abt wanting to find my person? I think I found them, but it was to late for them to be it. Im not gonna specify who but we're not friends anymore, and now we're not, they think I never wanted to be my friend until they stopped being friends. I was a bad friend but I cared and I feel like that was my person but I missed the oppertunity. they hate me now and I could've had the possibility of becoming friends but I said and did the wrong things and I think back on it, knowing exactly what I should've said. I've improved. I did. but its too late for that. idk why I was like that then. I cared but never acted like that by crossing boundaries. I wish I was better than, asked them to talk to me, and tried solving it instead of ignoring their small warnings and doing the opposite of what they want. I still look at the things they gave me, their drawings, old chats, thinking about what an amazing friend I had. the only reason I actually tried caring more and payed attention to what I was doing was when we "broke up" (as friends) Ig its like the saying, "We only appreciate the water when the well runs dry." but I appreciated it at all times but never showed it and cared more until it was all gone...