sometimes (semi vent)

Sometimes I want to be a parent to be better than my own parents lwk.. idk why I feel like this cause they're not abusive at all, but they do ignore me lwk and they are genuinely kinda stupid... For instance my dad says "everyone in this family is autistic because (my brother's name) is autistic". My brother has autism and he is 100 percent convinced I also have it just because it's hereditary. But he's making the mistake of correlation versus causation. If that were the cause there would be way more autistic people in the world since if one autistic person had like many kids, every kid would have autism. Now idk if I have it, prolly not bc I don't show many signs of it but ofc I can't say 100 percent sure unless I get a test or smth that's lwk a minor issue tho, but my parents always say illogical things like that. I beleive the bigger problem is like for instance I cried about how my looks were and idk. It's as if they stick to one idea and cannot change no matter what. They keep saying looks are irrelevant and all that shit like ok.. to you yeah. But that's an issue for me and maybe my appearance really is irrelevant but even so if I was a parent I would not say it just Ina harsh way bc I understand what it's like to genuinely wanna c0mmit just bc of how you fucking look So idk in a way I want to raise a child with comfort, not biological tho I don't wanna go through pregnancy and stuff. Idk if I will adopt one, maybe I might in the future