THE BI MONTHLY HYPERFIXATION DEPRESSION HAS BEEN FOUGHT!!!!

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Well in this case it’s been a bit over 2 months, that I’ve been in the fandom but today I felt that deep hollow pit in my chest that usually happens before I break down emotionally for a couple hours when I can’t live in my hyperfixation and have to deal with the effects of self loathing and reality. BUT THENNNNNNNN I FELT WAY BETTER BECAUSE I AM SUPER SMART (im average smart)!!!! The haters be hating that I have an early/mid 9th grade reading level and I just started school (8th grade)!!! IM SO SMARTTT!!! I was scared this summer that my brain cells decreased bc I made a lot of little mistakes but my grades are proving I haven’t lost that 3 years of straight As and perfect citizenship intelligence. People are saying I don’t have a life outside if books since I scored a mid 9th vocabulary but I HAVENT READ A BOOK IN TWO WEEKS!!!! *maniacal cackling* Also we’re getting a new studentttttt!!!! His name is the same as my friend who moves to Texas last year so that’s a bit depressing but it’s fine if he’s not a bitch like the last new kid we had. I feel the high of being a smart kid wearing off and the hollow chest pain is coming back so imma stop writing and do my hw while listening to Billy Idol on loop bc that’s how I cope ❤️
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