vent

tw/cw: tranphobia, dysphoria, dissociation I hate my life. Why wasn't I born a boy? Now, I can't be a boy, no matter how much I want to be. I cut my hair, let my body hair grow out instead of shaving, and started voice training, but it was never enough. My long hair made me uncomfortable and upset, and people called me a pretty girl. I cut it, and now I'm an ugly "girl" I'm not a girl I'm a boy. I've been training my voice yet I sound so insanely stupid either way. i grow out my body hair and I get told I'm gross. i say I'm a boy, I get told I'm not allowed to be. its gotten so bad that I'm never mentally here anymore. i want my fucking body back. I'M A BOY. IM A FUCING BOY PLEASE IM A BOY IM A FUCKING BOY