what ive been up to

sooo this forum post explains what happened in my previous post. ok so.. if you go back through my posts youll see that i had previously said that i felt trapped in my relationship. weeeeelllll..... the last post i did (before this one) said that i ended it. let me explain why. we met on the phone when my best friend introduced him to me. he was kind and it didn't take long for me to develop feelings. then months later we finally became a couple. things where going great... up until I started to go through some changes. (finding out I was therian). I told him that I was one once I was fully awakened (keep in mind he is a HEAVY christian boy sooo...) at first he didn't mind. yeah that's because he had no idea what I was talking about. skip another month probably and I notice that whenever I talk about my favorite shows and things I wanna do (example: get my hair dyed blue) he kinda... dismissed me. he said "please don't do that" or for my favorite things (that he didn't like) he said "eehh..." or "why...?" in a dismissive tone. it really pmo but I never said anything because I hate conflict and being in drama. later on I updated my TikTok account's discription and it mentioned being a therian and Christian (because I am also Christian, I just don't use religion to single out people who are different) anyway, he saw that and he quote unquote "went down a rabbit hole" on the subject. and found it....concerning. yeah. when he told me this I felt small and kind of offended. like yes, I get it. its strange. but it is only strange in your eyes. not mine. your not supposed to be judgemental of your partner. it was kinda like that time when he said some things (shows that I like) could be "misleading" aka stranger things. like bro you didn't even watch the show so why are you saying that? ehem. I'm getting off subject.. ANYWAY. he asked me if it was like a spiritual thing for me (it is, its like a past life) but he was scared to ask me.. and I got scared and lied and said no. things were never the same after that phone call. he was still the same.. but for me. I was drifting away from him. I started talking to him less. not saying "I love you" anymore and so on. this is around the time where I realized I was pansexual but leaning more towards attraction to women. (kinda like more pink than any other colors on the flag) aaand my partner was a boy. soooo you can kinda guess where that leads. a few days ago me and him wanted to play some gorilla tag (a VR game we both like to play) and we were playing when he noticed my name and said quietly "why is her name still like this...?" and I remembered that I had changed my name and gone undercover but forgot to change it back. it was "therianpaws" btw. I didn't say anything. we played for a little bit and then (I cant remember what happened next but) he said my name was concerning.. and I asked him why is it concerning? and he said "what?" like he didn't hear me. but I played along and kept quite. eventually my headset died and I had to go with my mom for her job. after a little while he texted me saying he was sorry for being a jerk. I didn't care though because he always said this after being a jerk. like your supposed to better yourself after saying sorry for the 10 billionth time. but usually I just said he did nothing wrong. this time however, I had had enough. I was tired of being silently judged and not being able to share my true self with him. so I said that what he said was hurtful. and he tried to make up an excuse (I cant remember what he said) but I just did it. I typed out a paragraph long sentence being straight with him. I told him what he does, how it makes me feel, and how I'm sick of it, and I told him that therianthropy has nothing to do with religion (he always tried to tie it to Christianity when it has nothing to do with that) and I told him that I was gay. he responded with "I understand..." and a series of sad messages that seemed like he was trying to guilt trip me and be clingy. he also didn't even acknowledge the fact where I said I was pans, it was like he completely ignored that part. I just blocked him because he was starting to freak me out. I blocked him everywhere and deleted his contact with me. after that, my mom found out cuz he texted her and I had to explain what happened aaaaand that also lead to me coming out to her lol aaaaand that also lead to me telling my best friend what happened and me coming out to HER as well XD. (both supported btw) aaand yeah I'm single now sooo yeah. that's all for now. BYEEEEEEEE