you dont have to read this if you dont want to

im not expecting anyone to read this i jus need to get it off my chest lol ESPECIALLY if the following TW's hit close to home TW: food/weight gain/weight loss/mention of restricting saur basically i have what you would call a very healthy appetite and i have no shame in eating for a family of 4 (and im not like exaggerating i genuinely do/can eat a ridiculous amount just so that u know im not like exaggerating lolz) but recently ive noticed that my jeans are startign to be tight around my thighs and so are my joggers/sweats (idk what americans call them) and i haev no problem myself with gaining weightt im perfectly fine with it but im worried that i'll keep growing out of all of my clothes and we wont be able to afford to keep replacing them so basically i feel guilty when i try to put onn a pair or trousers and i have to wiggle them on or the button feels a little tighter than yesterday :( so ive been thinking about cutting back what i eat, but i can eat so much that even aafter im served a xtra large portion of smth im hungry again like five minutes later and i am literally always hungruy , but if i ate till i was full evry meal id probably gain a lot of weight really quickly theres nothing wrong with gaining weight at all id be absolutely fine with it i dont care (LOVE URSELF UR STUNNING/HANDSOME/ CUTE and she makes comments like 'idk where u put it all' amd 'you must have hollow legs' etc which makes me feel guilty that she has to keep buying me new stuff so that it'll fit ANYWAYS UR GORGEOUS/HANDSOME/CUTE JUS TEH WAY YUO ARE NEVER CHANGE FOR ANYONE BUT TO FEEL MORE OCMFORTABLE IN UR OWN SKIN