songs I'm writing

if u guys have any questions about the songs put them in the comments plz! Carved in Static I promise— not just words I scream at the ceiling, not something I say and take back when I’m bleeding *slight pause* I mean it. I mean it. *static fills the empty space here* Through the static in my head, *static slowly fades out* through the nights I can’t sleep, through every scar I never show— you’re the one I keep. I promise I’ll stay when the lights all burn out, when the world gets too loud and we’re drowning in doubt— I’ll be right there, hands shaking, heart racing, if we’re going down then we’re going down blazing. (C) I PROMISE— I won’t let go, even when it hurts, even when we’re crashing headfirst. If it’s you and me against the world, then let it break, let it burn— we’ll never learn. I PROMISE— through the chaos, through the pain, I’d choose you over and over again. If forever’s just a word we scream, then I’ll scream it till it means everything. I promise— in every version of us, in every fight, every fall, every cut— I’m yours. Not perfect, not safe, but real enough to stay, and if love’s a war then I’m not walking away. (b) So write it in the dark, carve it in my veins— every broken piece of me is screaming your name. (c) I PROMISE— I won’t let go, even when it hurts…*(bv) I promise x5* *softer as the guitar fades out* I Promise...I promise... *till the guitar completely fades out* You Won’t Get the Rest of Me (v1) You show up in the silence like you never left a scar, in every song, every shadow, like you still know who we are. You say my name like you own it, like you didn’t let it die— but I buried that version of me the night you said goodbye. (p-c) You keep knocking on a door I burned down to the floor— (c) You’re just a ghost in my head, choking on the words you said, dragging chains of what we were— but I don’t feel it anymore. You keep calling me back, but I’m done feeding your past, you can haunt every memory— you won’t get the rest of me. (v2) You rewrite every ending like you’re the one who stayed, like you didn’t walk away and leave me there to break. Now you want a resurrection, want to dig up what we killed— but I buried us in concrete, and I’m not breaking that will. (p-c) You keep talking to a version of me you’ll never reach— c) You’re just a ghost in my head, choking on the words you said, dragging chains of what we were— but I don’t feel it anymore. You keep calling me back, but I’m done feeding your past, you can haunt every memory— you won’t get the rest of me. (b) Say my name like it’s yours— (it’s not yours) Break down all my doors— (they’re not yours) You had your chance, you let it die, now all you are’s a parasite I had to cut out— (breakdown) You don’t— you don’t get to say my name. *2/4ths beat* You don’t— you don’t get to feel my pain. *2/4ths beat* You left me there to rot, now you want what I’m not— but I’m not yours. (build) Dig it up— try again— watch me put it back to rest. Say it louder, say it dead— you’re just noise inside my head. (final hit before chorus) You had me once— YOU LOST ME (fc) You’re just a ghost in my head, but I’m not yours, I’m not dead, I’m not the kid you left behind— you don’t get me this time. You can scream into the past, I won’t answer, I won’t crack, you can haunt every memory— but you don’t get the rest of me. Matchstick Riot (v1) We were sixteen in a dead-end town, with cheap black jeans and the windows down, talking big like hearts don’t break, like love was ours to keep, not take. You kissed me like the world might end, like we were more than a crash course sin, and I believed every word you said like teenage gods don’t end up dead. (p-c) We had fire, we had nerve, we had no clue what love deserved— (c) Maybe we fell in love too early, with hands that shook and hearts too dirty, trying to hold forever when we were barely holding on. Yeah, we said “always” like we meant it, like time was ours and not a sentence, but maybe we were just too young to know when something’s gone. (v2) Now your ghost still rides shotgun in every street I used to run, and every summer smells like smoke, like old mistakes and inside jokes. You moved on, or maybe I did too, but some scars stick like they were glued, and I still hate the way it’s true— I learned what love was losing you. (p-c) We had sparks, we had scars, we just built a home inside a storm— (c) Maybe we fell in love too early, with hands that shook and hearts too dirty, trying to hold forever when we were barely holding on. Yeah, we said “always” like we meant it, like time was ours and not a sentence, but maybe we were just too young to know when something’s gone. (bridge) If I found you now in a different year, would it hurt less bad, would you still be here? Or were we made to burn that bright and fade that fast, all blacked-out sky? A first love’s just a matchstick riot— beautiful, then gone. (final chorus) Maybe we fell in love too early, or maybe we just fell in too deep, trying to make a home out of hearts that couldn’t sleep. Yeah, I still say your name in silence, like broken prayers and small defiance, ’cause maybe we were too young then— but it was real enough for me. Almost, Never (v1) You wore that look like you meant forever, but forever never looked that sure, one hand on me, one eye on the exit, like I was something you were waiting to outgrow. I learned your silence like a warning, every text gone cold by morning, I kept calling your distance “damage” just to make it easier to hold. (p-c) You said “I’m trying,” I heard “don’t leave,” guess I made a home out of your maybe— (c) You couldn’t love me back, not like I needed, you had half a heart and I believed it. I gave you everything, you gave me fragments, now I’m stuck sweeping up what you never had left. You couldn’t love me back, you couldn’t meet me there, I was all in, all night, you were almost, never. And that’s what kills me— you didn’t even have to lie, you just couldn’t love me back no matter how I tried. (v2) You’d pull me close when you got lonely, push me away when it got real, I was your almost in the dark but never something you could keep. And I don’t think you meant to break me, I think you just were what you were, but good intentions hit like bullets when you’re the one they still go through. (p-c) You said “I’m trying,” I heard “stay close,” now I know the difference between hope and false hope— (c) You couldn’t love me back, not like I needed, you had half a heart and I believed it. I gave you everything, you gave me fragments, now I’m stuck sweeping up what you never had left. (bridge) So here’s your exit, here’s your freedom, here’s the words you couldn’t mean enough— I was not too much, you were just not enough for the kind of love I was giving. (final chorus) You couldn’t love me back, not like I needed, I lit up your dark while mine was bleeding. I gave you all I had, you never could receive it, and that’s the kind of hurt that takes a while to leave. You couldn’t love me back, but I’m done begging for forever from a heart that only knew how to leave me halfway.