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here r the lyrics 2 a song that Lyre is writing and wanted 2 share w/ y'all (the reason it says me/I instead of us/our is bc it's about him as a person disconected from our system) Lyric TW: sh, suiside, drugs (mention of pills smocking and vaping), and child abuse (edit 1: ) (quite) I place my head on top of my knees as I try to cover fresh cvts w/ my sleeves 'cause I hear his foot steps on the stairs and the hair on the back my neck rises in the air as he makes me say amen 'cause his a head of sh1t (don't complain) but I do it again (sry) pushing away all my friends and family until I'm alone again just stop texting or talking that's all u have 2 do but there's sadly quite a few of u that I just can't do that 2 bc if I stop texting back u or Toms then u think I've fucking died and if I don't meet up w/ Harp or Saturn u'll be able 2 hear all guys screaming (multiple voices) WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY WHY'D HAVE 2 DIE why'd u have 2 kill urself the pills r on the shelf but they're empty now and we're the only 1s who know why, when, where and hoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow (edit 1:) (music just music) (just him) so I stay here even tho my heart just grows more cold bc cigeretes and energy drinks can't save a warry sole but I'll just keep trying to stay and my heart will never feel safe and my brain just keeps dicaying so I'll just hide in my bedroom and I'll just keep hoping u think that I'm not at home rn 'cause I know u won't believe my lias and if I try to leave he'll just make. me. die. (sword unsheathing noise IDK) but it's not like I won't try -- 🕷️♡🥦Tommy and Luka's lil beanz🥦♡🕷️ (edit 1:) u guys say that my eyes reflect the stars as u see my entair life get. torn. apart. but u'll help me get on the bus 2 help me get away u save up money just 2 give it all 2 away 'cause u say (diff voice) "u'll need the help if ur 2 get away" (back 2 him) -- 🕷️♡🥦Rex, Saturn and Luka's lil beanz🥦♡🕷️ (Edit2:) but sireisly I don't need ur help I can get out of here on my own but I know u don't believe me so I'll just try 2 get disowned OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH x20 (kinda like screaming/rly sad sounding) -- 🕷️♡🥦Rex , Sap and Luka's lil beanz🥦♡🕷️ (Edit4:) u can tell by the bandaids on my thiges and scars on my wrist and how when u have a vape I always ask 2 get a hit that it is very fvck1ng obvious that my head is full of sh1t like 'y r u so nice 2 me' and 'when will u abandon me' -- 🕷️♡🥦Lyre and Luka's lil beanz🥦♡🕷️ (Edit5:) so I sit on my bedroom floor blood dripping but gods I wish there were more -- 🕷️♡🥦Lyre, Ranboo and Luka's lil beanz🥦♡🕷️